It's amazing how God's graces comes and we thought they come in small packages?? They're actually as big as we dreamed of it to be! I've been praying so hard to learn my lessons soon so I can pass through the trials which I don't like. But the God I know is not like that, He wants me to wait patiently and learn the lessons in a way I'll never forget it. And sometimes, there's wisdom in the waiting. If only we listen carefully.

I've been through detours which has made me loose heart most of the time, " oh me of little faith". :) I finally got the message! I'm still learning though, don't get me wrong. But I think, I'm halfway there. "Believe" is the key!:)

The last couple of days I spent pondering on so many things, how to deal with a HUGE change is one of my concern. There's a time in your life when you have to make a huge turn and honestly, it's the scariest thought I ever had, leaving my comfort zone. I realized how age changed things as well. I used to be anxious "excited" to face it, but this time, I know it's different. I just need a GREEN light so badly! And so far, it's not been turned on:( I hate doing stuff for lack of better choice. I have principles and I'm absolutely sticking to it ! Such a waste of time doing stuff you are forced to do, at the end of the day, what's important is that you are able to do as your heart says and not what others dictates.

And for as long as you believe in yourself, and you have friends who are there and loving you unconditionally, nothing can permanently defeat us.

Spent the day at my favorite place in the world, the beach....my refuge, my sanity and my home.
It's a feeling of supreme tranquility. I can only think of one experience which might exceed in interest a few hours spent floating on water and gazing at hundreds, maybe thousands of stars, and that would be a journey to space. I can't wait to get under water.:)

I recently made a discovery that a bus ride is a good place for reflection. Searching for strength to look fear in the face as I know, I am up for a HUGE change soon. I don't wanna go into details about this at the moment. I am trying so hard to divert all negative thoughts, and just be optimistic through all these setbacks.

"I don't have to go to Stanford to be a good writer" very appropriate:)

Time to move on..